3 posts tagged “sad”

I went all day Monday without crying, I did pretty good over the weekend. Yesterday I did good until 5ish, then I started crying out of the blue. I know I will have days when I don't cry, and some days that I will cry. Today isn't fairing much better, I have teared up twice so far today. The not knowing and waiting to hear from him is the worst! I don't know if he's in his unit yet and has begun basic or not. If I knew that his training has begun I could at least start counting the weeks until he graduates. It's going to be stormy here today, tomorrow and Friday. Tornadoes are possible.
Hope you have a great day today! {{Hugs}}

Yeah even with Chad spending the day with me I still feel icky, and sad :'o( We went to our hometown today to take Josh to the armory for his 3 day drill weekend. While there we stopped to see Kassy & Jeremy. That was nice. Then we took Josh to eat and then we drove around the town for a bit. They are doing lots of building there. They're getting a Walgreens *lol* Really moving up eh?! We went in the armory and I wasn't very pleasant I must say. They took my boys and gave me a pink t-shirt. *lol* Really, I got a pink army national guard t-shirt. I'll take a pic of it later. After that Chad & I drove home and here we are. He's napping and I'm downstairs in the living room playing on the computer while M*A*S*H is on tv. I'm going to call my dr Monday about the counseling she wants me to get before my surgery. *For my mental state* I can't afford it so I'm going to see if she will accept one of the chaplains at the hospital. Plus they would be there for me while I'm in the hospital if I needed to talk to them. I'm also going to tell her I need this surgery ASAP! The sooner I have, the sooner I heal, and the sooner I can travel to see my boys :o) Chad's worried about me. He's worried that I'm losing it and what will I do when Josh leaves in May. Fall apart all over again! I'm wondering if I lived closer to our family if I would be better about this? At least I could go see them whenever and not sit here alone. I am going to start scrapbooking again. I'm going to have Chad get my supplies dug out and print off some photos. I'm going to sort through my stuff this weekend and then Monday go to the scrapbook store and use their work room for free. That way I'm not here alone day in day out. I need to meet people and start some new routines.
Love you guys! Keep those thoughts and prayers coming!!

We just got in from taking Brad out to eat. He's not feeling well and didn't feel like doing much. After we ate we took him back to his hotel and said our good byes once again. I didn't want to let go of him! I've been crying not stop since we left. We had to stop in Wal~Mart and get a few things. I'm surprised no body was looking at me with my red swollen eyes and crying fits. Everyone keeps telling me he's just in basic training, I know this. I also know he's not in his room playing video games and hanging out here with us. He's being trained for war! I knew this day was coming but nothing can prepare you for letting go of your children. It would be different if he was moving out to go to college or to be out on his own. It's going to take some time for me to get use to him being away. Please keep him and us in your prayers! I'm also praying that I get that job caring for people in their homes. Well, I'm tired and will be off to bed shortly.

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