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From Brad!! WOOHOO!!!! He started basic today at 08:00!!!!!! Now I have an address to write him :o) **Doing My Happy Dance**

I went all day Monday without crying, I did pretty good over the weekend. Yesterday I did good until 5ish, then I started crying out of the blue. I know I will have days when I don't cry, and some days that I will cry. Today isn't fairing much better, I have teared up twice so far today. The not knowing and waiting to hear from him is the worst! I don't know if he's in his unit yet and has begun basic or not. If I knew that his training has begun I could at least start counting the weeks until he graduates. It's going to be stormy here today, tomorrow and Friday. Tornadoes are possible.
Hope you have a great day today! {{Hugs}}

My doctor's head nurse called me today. We have to meet again with my doctor to go over the surgery, and some other things. I go in for that meeting the 16th!! That's 2 weeks away!!!! I know she is the #1 GYN in this town and she is very, VERY good. She is booked big time!! So here I sit in pain waiting...waiting for my son to call, waiting for my surgery. I hate waiting! I'm worried about coming up with the $$ upfront for this surgery. I had to pay the doctor's fee upfront on my last surgery. So I'm worried...that could be a big chunk of change!!

There is a new link to the "Help The Hale Family" donation page.
http://www.clkbj.com/messageboard/donate/

I was so hoping Brad would get to call us yesterday. We've still not heard from him, tomorrow will be one week since he arrived to the base. Until he calls us and gives us his address we can't write him. We don't even know if he is out of reception or what? His basic doesn't start until he gets to his unit there. Maybe this week we'll get a call. I'm doing much better. I still tear up now and then, but I'm really doing better. I knew it would take time to get use to him being away. I'm calling my doctor today to see if we can get my surgery scheduled, and talk to her about some other issues. I have to get this surgery done so I can get healed by the time Brad graduates from Basic, should be around May. Then in August we'll travel to SC to see Josh graduate basic. Busy summer for us!!! I hope everyone has a great week. Keep those prayers and vibes coming!!

Yesterday I forgot to tell you while in our hometown Wal~Mart a older man came up to Josh (Josh was wearing his military uniform) and thanked him, and told him that everyday he prays for our men and women in the military. Josh looked so proud and I think he did tear up, a little. Chad and I looked at each other and were letting the tears run down our faces. Then while we were eating a older guy and his wife were walking out, the older man stopped at our table shook his hand and said thank you. Again it was amazing and awesome. Some younger guys kept looking at him, like maybe they wanted to say something but didn't. So if you see someone in a military uniform take time to say thank you...it really makes their day!!!

Today it's cold and icky out. It's even rained in the night, and is sprinkling now. I don't know what our plans are for today. I guess we'll just hang out here. I may go through my scrapbook stuff to see what I have, don't have, & need. I also need to go through photos and see what pages to start working on. I may start with our recent pictures and work my way back. I hope today is a good day for me....just to have one would be awesome!!

Yeah even with Chad spending the day with me I still feel icky, and sad :'o( We went to our hometown today to take Josh to the armory for his 3 day drill weekend. While there we stopped to see Kassy & Jeremy. That was nice. Then we took Josh to eat and then we drove around the town for a bit. They are doing lots of building there. They're getting a Walgreens *lol* Really moving up eh?! We went in the armory and I wasn't very pleasant I must say. They took my boys and gave me a pink t-shirt. *lol* Really, I got a pink army national guard t-shirt. I'll take a pic of it later. After that Chad & I drove home and here we are. He's napping and I'm downstairs in the living room playing on the computer while M*A*S*H is on tv. I'm going to call my dr Monday about the counseling she wants me to get before my surgery. *For my mental state* I can't afford it so I'm going to see if she will accept one of the chaplains at the hospital. Plus they would be there for me while I'm in the hospital if I needed to talk to them. I'm also going to tell her I need this surgery ASAP! The sooner I have, the sooner I heal, and the sooner I can travel to see my boys :o) Chad's worried about me. He's worried that I'm losing it and what will I do when Josh leaves in May. Fall apart all over again! I'm wondering if I lived closer to our family if I would be better about this? At least I could go see them whenever and not sit here alone. I am going to start scrapbooking again. I'm going to have Chad get my supplies dug out and print off some photos. I'm going to sort through my stuff this weekend and then Monday go to the scrapbook store and use their work room for free. That way I'm not here alone day in day out. I need to meet people and start some new routines.
Love you guys! Keep those thoughts and prayers coming!!

I'm not alone today!! But I've lost it once already today and it's only 8:22am *sigh* I did make it about 3 hours yesterday with out crying!! But when I did start to cry I looked at the clock and it was 5:15pm....The time Brad always walked through the door smiling, sayin "hey mom". When I'm stressed like this I don't eat, or get hungry. So yesterday I didn't eat all day, didn't even get hungry. But when Chad got home from work he drove me to Taco Mayo to get some food in me. I ate it but felt so sick afterwards we had to rush home. It was that sick feeling you get in your stomach when something feels wrong. I just knew something bad was going to happen, had happen. All I could think of was Brad...was he hurt, okay, etc...Chad called his mom to see how she was doing, and she was just like everyone else when Chad told her I wasn't doing to hot with Brad being away. She said "it's just basic". He told her no it's not just basic...he's got his orders! She then started crying. I thought she knew...I thought it was odd that she wasn't emotional at Brad's going away party Easter. Maybe now the family will be more supportive to me! I did sleep last night...I took some slepping meds and got some good sleep. That's the only time I don't cry and think about Brad. As soon as I wake up I think, what's he gotten done already today, what is he doing right now, is he happy, I could go on, and on with my thoughts. It would help if I knew his routine, then I could say it's such and such time, Brad's doing this right now. I'll have to include that in my letter to him. Everytime the phone rings I RUN to answer it in case it's Brad calling. So far nothing. I did get a job offer yesterday but had to turn it down due to the upcoming surgery :o( We need the cash right now! We've got to come up with X amount of $$$ by the first so they won't garnish Chad's wages!!! I hate bills! Everything is falling on my shoulders all at once...I'm strong but I can't take much more right now!! I did find some bible verses that were helpful...I hope you all have a safe and good weekend. I'm going to try to enjoy mine. It will be just me and Chad until Sunday night. {{Hugs}}

You know, there are some really good people out there. Chad is a member of some online group, and they set up a website where people can send in donations to help us out. Here is the link...and please don't feel like you HAVE to donate. I just wanted to share that good people still out there. We gladly accept prayer donations ;o) Help The Hale Family

Last night I did good, I didn’t cry! So far I haven’t today, but it’s only 8am. I didn’t sleep last night. I was thinking to much. Thinking about Brad, how is he doing, what is he doing, thinking about the surgery, when will we get to go see Brad, will the surgery cause me not to see him when we can go, will we have the money to travel to South Carolina to see Josh graduate from basic. Just so many thoughts! (scratch that haven’t cried yet. I was talking to Josh just now and started tearing up). DANG!!! Josh will be gone tomorrow, Saturday, & Sunday for a military competition of some type. I have to drive him to Chickasha tomorrow to meet up with his recruiter so he can drive him to Duncan. While in Chickasha I will stop by and see Kassy and Jeremy :o) Saturday I'm going to the library and grab some books to keep me busy. I'm almost finished the book I'm on now, Playing With Boys. Maybe I can get that finished today or tomorrow. Well guys I'm off to rest and I'm hurting pretty bad right now. Keep those prayers coming for Brad and for us as well!!

@ about 4:30pm saying he was boarding the bus to Ft. Sill. He told Chad that he would call as soon as he could. I know why he hasn't called my cell today...I'd start crying and he hates for his mom to cry. I feel better knowing he's almost to the base...for some strange reason. Thanks for all the comments and prayers! Keep em coming!!